kick start.

why do i always think its first week back when im well into my second week of uni.

probably irrelevant.

im kicked this blog in its privates and let it wince for a few weeks.

nothing has inspired me.
im far to busy for this nonsense.

but uni is back so i have lots of spare time.

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ive had a call of the wild.

i want to run around with feathers on my head

and just be a brat.

reflection.

nostalgic past. winter blues.
how does one more forward without the presence of you.

i'm in an awful mix of emotion.
i dont know what i want to do or how i want to do it.
i enjoyed putting my party pants on for a bit.

didnt really solve the problem.
ive been so sick.
i barely notice it anymore.

no biggie babes.

Its been a fair crazy month or so of shananigans.
there have been nights i really shouldn't have had.

and plently of mornings i never wanted to end.

best thing about re-finding my trash bag is the slow and humiliating retracing of my steps the day and sometimes week afterwards.

i cant remember where i even left off. its been a hectic month.

there was madame m's 18th. werd.

waking up in a bed that wasn't mine was special.

retracing the fact that i'd commited all sorts of bad was even more so.

lucky all parties were of consenting age, and no friendships were burned.

then there was my birthday.

i visited my winter boyfriend. i ate ALOT of maccas. A boy made me cry in public.

I wore a pretty dress. and of course there was drama.

here's a few happy snaps from the past few months.

absolum.

little wise owl.

i have a bit of an obsession with owls at the moment.

the strangest part of the equation is that I don't like birds, sure I like some birds. Pelicans amuse me, Peacocks inspire me but there is something about owls that I'm facinated with at the moment.

I dont even classify them as birds.

This last image is my favourite, it really shows the markings of the birds.

I'm not sure why owls are assocaited with being wise, perhaps its the all knowing eyes? Regardless I'm thinking that it might be my next piece of ink.

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Alice.
i finally saw Tim Burton's version, I watched it twice in a row.

there's something soothing about the decadence of a tea party, and the budget of a Burton film.

Despite this modern take on a ever popular children's story it brings me back to the original Lewis Carroll novel.

my favourite lines being :

It's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.

I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.

LEWIS CARROLL, Alice in Wonderland

the day that being slightly mentally unstable was charming was the day I could breathe easy.

Liza-B sent me this song.

i can relate to the lyrics completely.

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?

They stare at me while I stare at you

Why can't I keep you safe as my own?

One moment I have you the next you are gone

Rehearsed steps on an empty stage

That boy's got my heart in a silver cage

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?

They stare at me while I crave you

I walked into the room dripping in gold

Yeah dripping in gold I walked into the room dripping in gold

Dripping in gold

A wave of heads did turn, or so I've been told

Or so I've been told

My heart broke when I saw you kept your gaze controlled

Oh I cannot solve

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?

They stare at me while I stare at you

Why can't I keep you safe as my own?

One moment I have you the next you are gone

Rehearsed steps on an empty stage

That boy's got my heart in a silver cage

thanks to my bestie for always inspiring my thoughts with music i love.

idolise.

i want to be a billionaire so fucking bad

so i can lie in bed til four

dripped with jewels the size of fruit

juicy in colour, tough as shit

i dont want to grow up

or face responsibility

i just want to play all day

afraid of being me

im in a rut, a childhood rut. in the last week i've been far more naughty than most could imagine.

ive done bad things, ive done silly things

but overall ive done fun things.

like sneaking out and coming back at 6am.

like sharing secrets.

with all the wrong people.

having sleepovers in front of a fire.

100 coffee runs.

being very badly behaved indeed.

i just want to cruise as far as the horizon and never look back

i used to worry but now all i do is things i dont care about.

its the perfect disguise for winter.

what can't cam do?

Camilla Akran's photography is versatile.

his shoot is of Tiiu Kuik

beautiful and refined.

Another shoot by Camilla. This time Maria Carla Boscono.

amazing images, the mutedskin tones complements the vibrancy in the flowers.

it doesn't have the usual commercial fashion shoot look.